everything.

i waited n hesitated. not to start yet another one. coz i think its pointless and i juz hate the fact of ppl hating n dissing the reflections. oh well, but i figured, i have to, juz for you. coz honestly, as pussy as it sounds, but i dun ffing care, i have never felt so much for a girl before. this is just, for you.

we'll start from d beginning alrite,
it was a great trip, things were goin awesome, then came that one night and dance that we had. for sure i knew, there were sparks but you seemed like you were holding back a lil. didnt matter tho, at the end i scored, i still gotcha number didnt i. but lil did i noe that this was all gona be the beginning to a sweet yet complicating journey wit u.

u started the msgin, n so me, of all ppl, would be more than euphoric to reply. but i was still doubtful, i didnt wana ask d question coz i didnt want u to think that i developed so much for u aft juz 1 dance. but the truth is yes, dun ask me how or why but thats d strangest thing. but it happened. n i still recall to one particular msg, "thinking of you. hehe. n thats not a joke" - okay, extremely good enough to put a wide smile across my face. but hold up, the later part of d msg - "suppose to go out wit my bf but he was bz" - somewher along that line la, dun recall clearly. WHAT? bf? i didnt bother to ask but dear, what truly was ur intention in saying that when u were in the 'getting to know me' stage? was it to test me if i was the 'matrep' character who didnt care if she had someone so long as i get some pussy/booty? well i'm not baby girl. its not fair to put the fact that i didnt care that u had a bf bcoz seriusly, it takes 2 hands to clap. i mean, running from topic, but didnt this shit juz occur in my life juz b4 kl.. argh! what is it wit me falling for girls that r taken? But listen up k, coz here's the shit, it takes 2 hands to clap.

then came trip 1, u were disappointed, i "didn't come." but i heard stories about how u were when i wasnt around. i'll be fair to u, i won't judge. coz i wana trust the words that come out of ur mouth. yes we slept together, side by side, ur head on my hand. but sadly, i hadta leave early. I am so sorry dear, i didn't mean to do it. Mayb if u'd understand the nature of my job that time, u'd noe that i juz cant ditch my job. For one reason n one reason only - the sole reason; so i could finish off the "unditchable" job and earn farking lots, so that i can go m over and over again juz to see u more often.. but trust me baby girl, at that time, those few hours wit u - i think it was juz 7?, was simply the most heart thumping encounter wit a girl i ever had b4. ask o, he knew i was freaking nervous on the way up to d room in d lift.

i hafta say, aft trip 1, things escalated. i didnt know why, at that time la, but i was enjoying tho. guys, its a lie to say that single life rocks to a full xtent bcoz trust me, nothing beats the feeling of having a girl to care for u so so much. which was what u did. sweetie, I DIDNT FEEL RIMAS AT ALL. i was enjoying every second of it. at least i cud feeling2 as tho i matair wit u alrdy(wah the inglesh is really getting to ay standard sial). then we confessed, n i was shocked. but we wanted to talk come trip 2. the confession was real but then again i was hearing lots n lots of stuff u noe, so how m i to believe? but trust me, i analysed, n i dcided, to juz take whatever thats comin outta ur mouth. i mean it does ouch a lil to noe that actually, im not really ur type......